December 2009
WELCOME TO TUMBLR DREW!
So my Bestest Friend Drew just made a tumblr and he’s a wee bit nervous about posting things,
so I think we should all go follow him and show our support for his situation (which he’ll later explain in posts)
http://penzoil.tumblr.com/
Go add him!!
:)
Hahaha funny convo
David: Are you looking for a relationship?
Me: I dunno
-later-
David: I could buy you food sometimes... but that might be too close to a date, and you dunno
Me: lol =P
-even later-
Me: 11 11 make a wish! XD
David: I wish you wouldn't be so difficult
Me: lol
David: It's not funny!
Me: I know... sorry
“I am the biggest mistake anyone could ever make”
– Me
damienkali:
tearsofrain:
damienkali:
okay i know that tumblarity is kinda fucke up but really? i was almost at 300 now i’m at 111???
I lost like most of my tumblarity too
grrr it really makes me mad because i worked hard for that….i hope it goes back up for you and me
same, I’m not terribly popular though, oh well XD
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damienkali:
okay i know that tumblarity is kinda fucke up but really? i was almost at 300 now i’m at 111???
I lost like most of my tumblarity too
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Forever?
Forever is such a long time
Even longer than these rhymes
And I find it hard to believe
that anyone could ever achieve
something that lasts forever
Does it happens? Never
I’ve been asked out a few times this week
But I like you, so I turned the other cheek
But maybe other guys
give me butterflies
and maybe other guys
look past the blue eyes
and maybe they try to win me over
like...
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The nightmare that scarred me forever
We were in the woods, crowded by trees
It felt amazing, us together, I felt free
The blonde boy came, I knew something would go wrong
You two argued for what seemed like so long
Words I can’t remember, motives I can’t explain
But when he pulled out the gun, I had to save your pain
I screamed at you, but you wouldn’t budge
You argued with him, over some silly grudge
He...
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Ouch, Pain in my heart
Panic stricken little girl
Go on, give your dress a twirl
Skip on down the street
don’t worry about who you meet
Strange neighborhood boy
With that new shiny toy
He’s got a secret game, he wants to play
I followed him in the dog house that day
Minutes passed, rules explained
She undressed, until nothing remained
He was her hero, her best friend
She’d do anything to...
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Run Away Girl, GO!
Leave now, now is your time to leave
Theres no goal left to achieve
People twist will always your word
Yet your cries for help go unheard
Twist the tables, their turn to speak
Life is looking gray and more bleak
Your bag is packed, hidden under the bed
Hopefully they’ll forget and pretend I’m dead
Stop pretending to know whats happening to me
None of you know, so just let it...
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AFTER HANGING UP ON YOU THREE TIMES IT’S AMAZING THAT YOU’D ASK ME “did you just hang up on me..?”
YEAH, I FUCKING HUNG UP ON YOU!
lEAVE ME ALONE AND GO BACK TO YOUR PERFECT FAMILY, DON’T CALL ME ASKING FOR FUCKING FAVORS!!!!!!
HAVE YOUR NEW STEPP DAUGHTER DO IT!
YOU BASTARD!
I HATE YOU
I HATE YOU
I HATE YOU
and mostly…
I hate myself for not being good...
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Run Away Girl
Pack your bag, time is not something to waste
Don’t forget anything in your desperate haste
Cell phone and charger, ipod too
Now I must confess this to you
“I’m running away, I thought you should know.
This just kind of sucks, I have nowhere to go”
You told me you’d always be there
I had a feeling you didn’t care
I’m stranded, destination unknown
...
oh
My blood ran cold
Today is getting old
Time is running out
Scream! Shout
No one seems to understand
This world wasn’t mean to be so bland
So here I am, staying home
heads on fire, thoughts free to roam
I’d hate to interupt to say good bye
I’m giving up, I don’t know why I try
If I’m lucky, they won’t be late
But in truth, I’d rather face my...
Lost ipod.. Lost hope
My ipod is my portable escape from life
I bring it everywhere
And now…
My baby is lost
its as if all the color drained from my world..
I want my baby!
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Not good enough, stupid too? ouch
You’ve made a point, they have too
I’m not good enough for any of you
Up my arm, slices and cuts
But still it’s never enough
Blood oozing out, dripping off my skin
I just want something I can believe in
Screaming, howling with hurt and pain
My eye and the window, both soaked with rain
Home alone, on the floor
I can’t take it anymore
Rope is hung, noose around my...
“Family isn’t determined by blood or marriage. It’s determined by who...”
– ME
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Very interesting
isleepingraves:
wearethewaiting:
antekeane:
feckthat:
michellemcglone:
niamhnostalgic:
orientaltiger:
technicolormae:
YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (Favorite color and favorite animal) - Blue Wolf YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (Your middle name and street you live on) - Marie Ledge YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (The first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your middle name) - Dugma YOUR...
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something missing ?
I’m sitting here, on my own
utter silence, I’m all alone
Waiting for vibrations and a lit up screen
You don’t know how much your words mean
Missing you
Miss me too?
Today was fickle, and today was fun
Even though you made me hold your gun
I’m feeling onfusion, but I’m feeling delight
I wish we could have spent the night
It was fun watching you shoot the...
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Why?
During dinner, you pulled me aside
I knew you had something to hide
You’re proposing to her.. want me blessing?
You forced me to say yes, I’m only guessing
Words failed me so I nodded my head
Secretly wishing I were dead
You’re not a father to me
But to them you would be?
You told me your plan, and it was unromantic to say the least
I talked to the manager while you...
Don't help me, I'm too far gone
So many thoughts fill my head
I’m wishing I were somewhat dead
somewhat, not all the way
But then again, I know I can’t stay
Nightmares haunt me
Sometimes they are all I see
Like a DVD forever to play
I just can’t get away
Day or night they stay by my side
Nowhere to run, nowhere to hide
I’m scared for you, too many regrets
Now I’m waiting for a text I hope...
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Ask me again?
Mom, you always ask “what do you want” to me
But it’s so obvious, don’t you see?
I want a dad, no
I want a feeling words can’t show
I want to be believed in, supported and loved
not yelled at, scream at, abused and shoved
I want to trust and be trusted, show and see
All of these silly things, too good for me
I want to cry in the rain
Let go of my pain
I want...
ABCs of Rachel :) ?
A - Available: yeah ;)
B - Best Friend: Tie between Puff, Katelyn, Destiiny, Travis, Coty, Tarah, Siannon and Heather
C - Crush: unfortunately, I do have one
D - Dad’s Name: My biological father is shit. Almiro Jose Rita and Thomas Rita raised me (grandpa and uncle)
E - Easiest Person To Talk To: Puff
F - Favourite Band: The Beatles, Maria Mena, The Veronicas
G - Gummy Bears Or Worms:...
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Convo with my dad
Me: I can't do this anymore! Stop pretending to care about me! either you do or you don't! Either you're in my life or you're not. I can't keep doing this... Tell what its gonna be...
Dad: .....
Me: hello?
DIAL TONE
WALK OUT ON ME AGAIN?
We go through this nearly every day
I’m tired of it in everyway
Be a father, on don’t
But no, you won’t
Never Knowing...?
I’m waiting for that text, I know I’ll never get
And thinking about all the things I regret
I’ll write a new story, about love, loss and leave
This will be my coping skill, how I will grieve
Bringing Jolly Ranchers, she’ll visit every saturday night
Hoping she is wrong, hoping he’s not right
They’ll fall in love, over many months in time
They’ll be...
FUCK THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!?
I AM SO FUCKING SICK OF GUYS NOT CARING AND BEING HURT BY MEN! IS THE ONLY THING THEY ARE GOOD FOR HURTING PEOPLE?! SHOW ME ONE NICE GUY WHO HASN’T TOTALLY DEVASTATED A GIRL AT LEAST ONCE! THIS IS BULL SHIT AND I HATE IT
its funny how..
lifeaintjustajoke:
pint-sized:
ryngrrt:
It`s funny how hello always ends with a goodbye, it`s funny how good memories can start to make you cry. It`s funny how forever never really seems to last, it`s funny how much you`d lose if you forgot about your past. It`s funny how friends can just leave you when you`re down, it`s funny how when you need someone they`re never around. It`s funny how...
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Snow, Christmas, Mistletoe, fuck it?
Like a blanket, snow paints the ground
like icy death, it doesn’t make a sound
shivers and sneezes, snow flakes and hot chocolate, too
So many distractions, but I still think of you
I’m kicking myself mentally, begging for an escape
I want this to be over, before it’s too late
I won’t let this begin, I know where it’s going
I’m thinking, looking out the...
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Random Poetry?
A warning label should have came with you
“You might fall for me” Holy crap, thats true
And I’m sitting heer, texting you, blushing with a smile
Wondering if you knew this would happen for a while
Maybe it’s just a crush
But, No one else makes me blush
I guess I really wonder, do I ever cross your mind?
And if I do, will you tell me sometime?
I’m so confused,...
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Poetry, possible musings?
The line is thicker, all around
I can’t stand, I’m belly down
Submission, I must not
Coping skills, I was taught
Incomprehensible emotions, flying through my head
I’m wishing it would get better, wishing I was dead
Wishing you could save me, wishing you wanted to
Wishing I meant actually something to you
Wishing for Superman to save me
Wishing for Dawhlen to see
Wishing...
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What to do?
First off, KALI! Please read this!!!
My mom took my computer away, and currently she is messing with my cellphone.
If you text me I might not get it immediatebly but I will get it. And I promise I will always be here for you and no matter what happens I love you very much <3
Right now things at home are bad, I don’t know what to do.
I can only update posts at school, my laptop and...
A new record
I have been single on facebook for 2 minutes, and I just got asked out.
Is that a personal record? Why, yes it is.
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Pressure crushing down on me..?
His heart soon broken, mine is too
I wonder if you know.. it’s all you
Friends know, words thrown at me
This is what caring is supposed to be
He has good intentions, this brother of mine
It’s no big deal, I told him, it’ll be fine
He doesn’t believe me, he thinks his own
It’s fine, I said, I’ll handle this alone
Puff, give me strength to do what must...
Dear Juliet... Love Romeo?
WHAT DO I DO?
CONFUSION
CONFUSION PAIN LOVE
LONLINESS AND REGRET!!
Why is life suddenly so confusing?
Choices..
Life is all about choices.. right?
Too many, too little, never enough, never the right one.
I don’t know what to do.
My heart is being ripped in two
And I can’t stop thinking about you
I don’t know what to do..
It must be so obvious, to all of my friends
my current relationship really needs to end
It must be so obvious, they must know how I feel
But is this...
Poem.. another one
Tears streaming down her face
all the pain held her in place
words screamed at her, it doesn’t end
Won’t someone save her? A lover, a friend?
No one comes, the damsel is left behind
but her cries remain, forever to remind
of all the suffering that was ignored
and all of the pain she silently endured
SuperMan, I thought you were real?
I was wrong, and my fate is sealed
Mom,...
Poem
I cry at night, I’m all alone
Staring into dark, no light shone
Heart, not beating
trust retreating
Without you, I’m lost and scared
I doubt that anyone even cared
Can’t you see maybe I have secrets of my own?
And can’t you see without you I’m alone?
Maybe someday, things will change
problems gone, priorities rearranged
Until then.. I just want to let you...
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I’m trying to be myself, in such a confined space
Thinking of all the memories time didn’t erase
Let it bleed out, wash away my pain
Let my tears be followers, and copy the rain
Car smash!
car crash!
Why did it have to be you?
All the pain you helped me through..
Meaning nothing if you leave
Stay with me, please!
Critical condition
pathetic suspicion
I’d rather have...