February 2010
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Hmm
I’m wondering how something so right became so wrong
I’m wondering why I hear your voice in this song
I’m wondering why how you feel about you is how I feel about me
And I’m wondering if this is how hard things are always gonna be
Nothing seems to make sense anymore
I don’t know what to do, I’m not sure
I put the smiling faces
In my frowning places
In...
January 2010
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Blood drips down my thigh, don't bother to wonder...
You lean over, kiss me on the cheek
If I was standing, my knees would go weak
You light a fire, I can’t put out
Theres something I don’t know about
I don’t know if I want to put my heart so tender
In this unsure and violent situation like a blender
Watch the pieces tear apart
Remenants of a broken heart
I’m so afraid, and you held me tight
I had such a good time...
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You could have said goodbye!!!!!!!!!!!!!
After everything we’ve been through?
And everything I felt for you!
And don’t pretend like you never knew!
You were running out of time!
And somewhere, along the way
I believed you and what you’d say
But it didn’t matter at the end of the day
You didn’t try to fight!
You could have said goodbye
You could have atleast tried
And maybe I shouldn’t of...
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I am definately going to hell for this
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Good-Bye
One word, some might even say two
It was these words, I wanted from you
It’s not much, just a flip of the tongue
But we make mistakes, and we’re young
I just was hoping, I meant a bit more
Now I’m not really so sure
I was hoping for a text, maybe even a call
I was hoping for something more than nothing at all
I was hoping you’d remember, the times we wished for...
Today I hung out with my crush, my friend, my...
I hate when I get that feeling when I know I'm...
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When you're gone..
I’m staring at the void, but I’m not quite ready to dive in
I know you’re gone, but I’m not crying yet, maybe thats my sin
I feel cold, empty, and unmoved. Like an unbeating heart
It hasn’t hit me because I’m waiting for my world to fall apart
Maybe it has, maybe it will. and maybe it already did
Maybe I didn’t notice, maybe I missed it, I’m...
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Why is it that all the guys I am attracted to are...
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When I'm gone
It feels really heavy the guilt you carry with,
that gun in your pocket
You keep imagining what it would be like
to put to your head and cock it.
Blood sprayed out,
dear on the floor
That suicide note you wrote,
hanging on the door.
You’re thinking about the world,
and who will cry
And what everyone is going to think,
about how you chose to die.
You think about your mom,
maybe...
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Chaotic things happen in Chaos
In the beginning there was Chaos, the greeks say
But in the beginning I think there was hope, in some way
Hope is something I hate to feel
At the same time it’s just so real
It’s a relief, a gift and a curse
It can make things better or worse
I’m not really sure what I’m feeling right now
But I know I can make it through- some how
With you, without you, and I know...
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Stop lying to me.. Or else one of these days I...
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A slice for every tear I’ve shed
A smile for ever drop I’ve bled
You might find some surprise
At the emptiness inside
It’s a void, similar to the one at the door
It might be the same, I’m not really sure
Purple lines, spread across my thighs
All the pain caused by your lies
White scars across my arm
Magically protecting me from harm
From temptation, a reminder of...
This hurts so bad...
Go to sleep and dream of her tonight... Oh...
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And it's too late now to say all the wonderful...
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the-loquacious-aphasic:
“I’m a slut because i’ll wear shorts and a tank top. I’m a bitch because i don’t let you push me around. I’m a liar because i won’t tell you everything. I’m stupid because sometimes i’m wrong. I’m ugly because my face isn’t perfect. I’m a whore because i like boys. I’m annoying because i’m not chill enough. I’m a loser because i’m not friends with your group. I’m fake...
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WOW
Mom: When are you coming home?
Me: Uhm.. seeing as you kicked me out!!... I don't know
Mom: Well then I don't know when your phone is getting turned on
Me: .......
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Happiness
Happiness is the silver blade, which hangs above my head
Happiness is that faint feeling, when I’ve begun to bled
Happiness is that red droplet down my arm
Happiness is that beautiful baby birthed from self harm
Through the blade, from day to day
I know just what to do and say
Fake a smile, play really good
Then sulk around the neighborhood
Cry only if you’re in the rain
...
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WOW
Ok, so my mom has decided that if I’m not home, I should be wallowing in a downward spiral suicidal depression.
She is cutting off my communication with my friends in anyway she can.
I swear to god I can’t handle this and I’m about two more hate texts from my Uncle away from slitting my wrists in the bathtub.
WTF
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I'm never going to forget this
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Best. Fucking. Sunday. Ever: NOTE SARCASM
So… I got kicked out of my mom’s house, she doesnt want me anymore.
She turned my phone off and now I am living with my dad.
I have no way for my friend to get in touch with me other than the internet and the house phone to which I don’t know the number for.
My mom is now begging for me to come back but I can’t because it hurts too much after everything she said and I no...
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Do I have any self respect?
Good question. But no
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ir parafuso a prostituta que deu a luz a você
One of my favorite insults to mutter under my breath YAY for heritage!
“Go fuck the whore that gave birth to you”
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I’m drowning in a sadness, as deep as the sea. They don’t notice the pain inside; the pain that’s drowning me. If they could notice, they wouldn’t care. They’d drag me down further, cutting off my air. Help me! Help me! Set me free! Someone, someone please save me! But here I am, limp and dead, my hair floating about my head. Eyes open; forever to see
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Hey Dad,
In my dreams, I am free Plain and simple, I am me In the sky, in my heart pieces together, never apart I can feel it all around me, I can feel it inside Such a sense of wonder, I just want to cry Poems now lacking, maybe its true This punishment so long overdue Daddy, why do you love her not me? Is that who dads are supposed to be? Screaming, hitting, hating all day Isn’t there any other...
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Words are just silly little sounds
Made when people are around
If there’s no meaning is there is no soul
Really they shouldn’t have been said at all
I don’t know what I’m doing, or where I’m supposed to be
I do know who I am, but my best guess is that I’m me
I don’t know who that is, I’m still a bit unsure
Uncertainty is like a disease, I...
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Ouch
I’m curious, if you know what you do to me
And I’d tell you, but that would take alot of bravery
I know we all have our excuses why
But really, we have to atleast try
Time isn’t on our side
No where to run or hide
Desperation chasing us down!
Fear holding us to the ground
I guess the end is the end, nothing I can do
But being trapped is alright if I’m with you
...
My vagina itches
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WOW
Dylan: hey wat sup?.
Me: waiting, u?
Dylan: nm jc
Me: nice
Dylan: yeah
Dylan: but hey will u give me a blow job?
Me: no
Dylan: y?
Me: I'm not THAT much of a slut
Dylan: I never said you were
Me: Well, you're still not getting a blowjob
Dylan: y?
Dylan: I have a nine inch dick
Me: I bet you do
Dylan: Want me to prove it?
Me: No, thats kinda the point of me avoiding your penis
Wow. Nice. Ok. Get yourself killed. SNowmobiling...
Currently waiting for my friend to sneak over.
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Shut the fuck up, mom
1. You’re never home so stop complaining about how shitty it looks
2. theres no food because you dont shop
3. You don’t know my friends because you dont ask and refuse to meet them so dont fucking complain
4. I TOLD YOU WHAT MY PLANS WERE AT 10, YOU SAID YOU’D DRIVE ME AT 1 AND NOW YOU’RE CHANGING IT TO FOUR BECAUSE YOU DON’T WANT TO GET DRESSED!!! WTF YOU’RE...
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Don't make me change my mind
Mistakes, I’m making them on purpose now
I want to stop this, but I don’t know how
Staring into the void, waiting for the cue
Waiting for the day when I lose you
I’ll step through that threshold and I will fall
further and further down, past them all
Past the forgotten daughters, past the regret
Past the little girls who will never forget
Past the molestation, past the...
14458.) i'm at the point of frustration and...
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I feel so lost, I’m off the road
I’m sitting here, I’m so alone
I don’t know what I want anymore
I’m confused and feeling so insecure
Across the room, my best friend lays
She’s been there through my bad days
But I can’t open up, the words aren’t there
Besides it’s only words, why should she care?
She doesn’t feel the burden, she...
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Just talked to Kali (damienkali) She is doing well...
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I don't normally do this, but I need to let it...
Ok, so I’m really stressed out lately, and I just don’t know what to do. i feel like my friends are leaving. Not leaving me, just leaving in general. Laura is moving, Damien/Kali is in a hospital. WTF?
And the guy I think I’ve fallen for has complicated things so much, and I feel so guilty because none of this is his fault. Its mine for being so stupid.
Basically he’s...
I don't have enough middle fingers to express how...
Fuck you Pat
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